I wish so badly to have a friend. Not just any friend. A friend who is willing to drive with me. Through all hours of the night, just to stop at the mobile to get an icee, take pictures, and listen to cool indie music. I almost feel like i'm trying to be something that i am not. I really should just let everything flow, and not care about what everyone else thinks or says. Easier said then done i suppose.
I've been into writing alot lately. Poems, and just stories in general. words.
I've been doing alot of thinking. Alot of observing the people around me. Their actions, movements. I like that when I am in class, i can spot something that i would like to just whip out a pen and paper and write away, or sometimes my camera. Gosh photo has been taking up so much of my life. I really need to get my priorities straight. I don't want to.
I need a male friend.
I need a BOYfriend.
..this school with thousands of kids and i can't find one to quench my thirst.

With all this observing..i see you haven't been the one staring at me. I believe i'm just conceited.
I still would love to even speak with you.
I can't help but sweat a little whenever you're around.

You on the otherhand.
I know your feelings towards me.
And it's odd, because i can still remain myself.
Or what I think is myself.
I'm still not sure on anything.

I need to kick it up in school.
Starting tonight.

Goodnight.

And always:
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