it's extremely difficult

to see one of your reallyreally good friends sitting there helpless while she cant move,hardly breathe and talk. you don't realize how hard it is until your in that position. there was so many times today when i wanted to run over to her and just hug her as tight as can be, and cry on her shoulder. but i couldnt. i didnt even have a second alone with her. i couldnt tell her how much i loved her and how much i needed her and how much i wish she could just be back to her normal self. i miss her. she's still there, i can tell. it's just a slowed town, tired, sedated version. nonetheless i dont like it. she can hardly remember what happened. i wish there was more i could do. but i know there isnt. i was scared when i saw her. i was scared she wasnt the same. i was scared she didnt want me there. i was scared she was in too much pain.

words cant describe how much i love her.
and how much i want her to be better.
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