ahh.

heyhi. lauren here.
So today was weird. i got up, made eggs, ate and went straight to cleaning my room. So i cleaned alot so i took a break. Went on the computer. Then we had dinner. and i asked my mom if i could go out with friends tonight. and after a few minutes of begging she said yes. but as long as i cleaned my room first. so i did and we got ready to leave. and my brother ralph is learning to drive so we were gunna take the standard car and go bring me to a restraunt to meet up with my friends. it was just me, my dad and i. and when we got into the car everyone was pissed off because they couldnt find the key to the car. but finally did. as soon as we pull out of the driveway we have problems. my dad is yelling at ralph and theres an asshole behind us trying to pass us. so my dad opens the door and SCREAMS at this guy. and if you know me, you know that i hate it when people fight / yell at eachother seriously. so this asshole follows us down the road and cuts us off. and my dad is yelling out the window and giving him the finger. and the guy pulls of the road, grabs his crotch and gives the finger. and im freaking out. it was so scary. i thought my dad and this guy were literally going to fight. when i got out of the car, i was shaking and stuttering. and just straight up freaking out. i eventually calmed down. we went on a walk through vassar played hide and seek, and took pictures. then we were gunna go to the cubbyhole but it was packed so we got smoothies instead and just hung out. i got home and chilled and here i am. it was such a wierd day. but no one at home likes me. someone needs to move next door. someone good. a friend. so i can get out of this house more. im going to shoot myself.
i miss my brother.
no picture today.