todday

was a shitty day. Until the fire drill seventh period. When i found $10.
And when i got home. I found out the guy i maybe / might/ not sure / best friend likes me. so that's cool. i think we are gunna hang out on thursday since it's a half day.
yeah. nothing to say today =)
thanksforreading.

went.

i went shopping today with Nadia and Miles. That was really fun. I got my formal dress, shoes, Shannon's gift, and a shirt. Miles bought skinny jeans. (awesome ;D)
I've been inspired to get into writing more. But i never know what to say. Nothing really interesting ever happens to me.
Although my birthday is in 12 days. Shannons birthday is on Friday. And home coming is on Saturday. OH! and I will be leaving for Buffalo for a few days on the 9th. Into the 11th. I'm seeing Whoopie Goldberg on the 9th in Buffalo. Apparently she's hilarious.. And the 11th is A Rocket To The Moon concert. WOO! So i guess the next 2 weeks will pretty busy. That should be nice.
I still want a boyfriend. No one likes me though. It really sucks.
I also really want an UglyDoll. And I told Miles that's what i wanted for my birthday and he was so close to getting it. And i was like yes! it's only $10. but no. plus shipping and handling its $37! That's ridiculous. So he's not getting it. It's fine. But i still really want one. I told my brother who is in college. Maybe he'll get it:D HAH. I'm terrible.
I am in love with Death Cab For Cutie today. <3
So i guess while i have nothing else to say for now i'll show you my homecoming dress.
here it is:

The only difference is i'll be wearing black tights.

and here is what i'm wearing out to shadows / frankie and johny show for shannon's birthday.:


i love both outfits. i'm excited.
it's getting late. goodnight.
thanks for reading.
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caves by jacks mannequin

i wish i had more friends.
i wish more people enjoyed talking to me.
i wish i knew what i was known as.
i wish i didn't depend on other people so much.
i wish i could say i was in love.
i wish i could say i was a good person and actually believe it.
i wish you liked me.
i wish you were one of my best friends.
i wish one day we could hang out and just be understand eachother and get along so unbelievably well.
i wish that one day i could show you how awesome you are.









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this week.

it's been really fun. alot of bonding with nadia. i really enjoyed it.
julie is doing so much better which would bring a smile to anyones face.
my parents got back from aruba last night with many pictures, treasures and stories. it was so good to be home though. this week i did 2 oral reports. and one was in spanish. 100. and the other in english. which im not sure what i got yet. but still. awesome. homecoming is right around the corner. this coming saturday. im excited. although julie cant go =( and she was date. so that's lame. friday is shannons birthday. so we are going out to shadows and then going to see frankie and johny. tomorrow is shopping with miles and nadia. shalll be fun. getting my dress tomorrow. ill post pictures.
i cant really think of anything else. but if i get a creative spark or something i will type it.
OH! everyone go listen to Pencil In The Portrait. they're super good. :)
thanksforreading

i think im gaining another bestfriend

im excited. this kid is too awesome.

good day.

got my signed a rocket to the moon poster thanks to miles. the child is awesome. he sat with us at lunch.
speaking of lunch.. i feel bad i'm not sitting with my other friends.
i don't think they really miss me though. bleh
julie's doing better! hopefully walking tomorrow.
today i got up. didnt eat. went to school. lunch. hardly ate. got home had goldfish. left for nadias. hung out for a few. went to the hospital. visited with julie for like 5 hours. just got home. sippin on oj. now i have to get all this shit done.

freshman breakfast with nadia and miles tomorrow.
off the bus with nadia. bingo tomorrow night.
i'm busy. i kinda like it.



p.s. i miss being bestfriends. =(
idk if what you posted was towards me. but this is to you.
and i hope you know who YOU is. :)

i can't help but feel out of place

in school. there's all these people talking to eachother and having conversations about sex. that's not me. and i don't like being surrounded by it either. i just can't wait till julie gets better. she's so strong. but i miss her too much. i can't wait till things get back to normal and we can have out fall party as planned. just the three of us. i need more friends though. positive influences. haha. i sound dumb. but honestly. i'm hoping this friendship with miles progresses as well. he's really cool.
enough for today.
but i miss guy too.
bleh=/

goodnight.

it's extremely difficult

to see one of your reallyreally good friends sitting there helpless while she cant move,hardly breathe and talk. you don't realize how hard it is until your in that position. there was so many times today when i wanted to run over to her and just hug her as tight as can be, and cry on her shoulder. but i couldnt. i didnt even have a second alone with her. i couldnt tell her how much i loved her and how much i needed her and how much i wish she could just be back to her normal self. i miss her. she's still there, i can tell. it's just a slowed town, tired, sedated version. nonetheless i dont like it. she can hardly remember what happened. i wish there was more i could do. but i know there isnt. i was scared when i saw her. i was scared she wasnt the same. i was scared she didnt want me there. i was scared she was in too much pain.

words cant describe how much i love her.
and how much i want her to be better.
<3

you don't deserve what happened

you're one of the most kind-hearted, loving, sincere people i know. i coouldnt have asked for a better person to be friends with. i'm so so so glad you're okay.
i love you<3
feel better. you're one tough cookie.
:)

School

School started today. My day was good I saw alot of old friends and got to all my classes without getting lost. But when I got home today all thesse papers I had gotten pretty much exploded on me. I was tired. And nothing was making sense. At this point I feel terrible and stressed and it's only the first day. I need counseling. I ended up crying o. My moms shoulder telling her it was pms. Half of it may be that. But everyone keeps saying high school is the greatest four years of your life but sofar I'm not seeing itt. They're also saying how this is high school and it's gunna determine alot of things in my future. Future?! I can't even decide what to wear the next day. I'm
so nervous. I need to talk to someone. Someone who understands. Aim-laurenedelia
thanksforreading please help.

and so it begins.

school starts tomorrow. im so excited. a little nervous. i know where all my classes are. and i have my bestfriends with me. i saw a few people i knew today which was good. well wish me luck. this has to be short because i need to get to bed. and wake up tomorrow at 6. goodnight<3 thanks for reading. whoever you are.

this year.

it has to be different. i'll make it different. i want to be different. new friends. new risks. new mind-set. i'm excited. this year i'm going to get more into photography. and it's been showing more to me lately. i spend most of my days surfing flickr and jotting down ideas. i'm glad. i feel like when school comes everything will just fall into place. although i'm not sure if it actually will. i hope.









<3thanksforreading

aw sam(guys girlfriend) took a 3 hour bus ride to buffalo to see guy and she's staying the night. but how cute is that. goodness i cant wait till i fall in love.

ralph was sayin they were gunna get jiggy widdd ittt. hahahaha.

september 3

september?! already. this is just ridiculous.
i start school next wednesday. im going clothes / supply shopping tomorrow.
i'm excited though! the school is huge. but im so excited about new friends.

i got a restricted call a few minutes ago from a really scared girl. i never caught her name but i do know that she was looking for a girl named katie. she was really scared because she was at the mall and it was really dark. i felt so bad because i couldn't help her at all. if i could have i would've. she started crying even more when she found out it wasn't katie. after i got off the phone with her i felt terrible..i really hope that girl is okay.

goodnight everyone.

ahh.

heyhi. lauren here.
So today was weird. i got up, made eggs, ate and went straight to cleaning my room. So i cleaned alot so i took a break. Went on the computer. Then we had dinner. and i asked my mom if i could go out with friends tonight. and after a few minutes of begging she said yes. but as long as i cleaned my room first. so i did and we got ready to leave. and my brother ralph is learning to drive so we were gunna take the standard car and go bring me to a restraunt to meet up with my friends. it was just me, my dad and i. and when we got into the car everyone was pissed off because they couldnt find the key to the car. but finally did. as soon as we pull out of the driveway we have problems. my dad is yelling at ralph and theres an asshole behind us trying to pass us. so my dad opens the door and SCREAMS at this guy. and if you know me, you know that i hate it when people fight / yell at eachother seriously. so this asshole follows us down the road and cuts us off. and my dad is yelling out the window and giving him the finger. and the guy pulls of the road, grabs his crotch and gives the finger. and im freaking out. it was so scary. i thought my dad and this guy were literally going to fight. when i got out of the car, i was shaking and stuttering. and just straight up freaking out. i eventually calmed down. we went on a walk through vassar played hide and seek, and took pictures. then we were gunna go to the cubbyhole but it was packed so we got smoothies instead and just hung out. i got home and chilled and here i am. it was such a wierd day. but no one at home likes me. someone needs to move next door. someone good. a friend. so i can get out of this house more. im going to shoot myself.
i miss my brother.
no picture today.