i don't know what to do with myself anymore.
i'm unhealthy, ungrateful, and i have no idea what i want to do with my life.

i simply cannot be myself.
i am constantly being inspired by other people.
this is a bad thing for me. i need to inspire myself.
i wish i could erase thoughts of all these other people just for a little.

i can't wait for college, if i ever make it there.
there will be freedom, and responsibility.
and by that time, i'll most likely know what i am doing with myself.

it's the new year. we are 1 & 3/4 days in.
i can change.
i need to change.