i'm so incredibly lost.

my life.

i grew up in a house. With a mother and a father and two older brothers. everything was normal. 2 eyes, a nose, a mouth. 2 ears and 2 sturdy legs to walk the earth with. i always loved how i was and how skinny i was. middle school came along and i realized i was different i still loved myself though. then high school rolled around and i feel worse than ever. i don't feel like i am anything. i'm such a small percent in this huge school. i'm not myself. i'm not even sure who myself is. for the past 4 or 5 years, i have been copying what everyone else has done. for the past 4 or 5 years, i have not been myself. so now, finally realizing this. i am stuck. what am i supposed to do? how do i go upon finding out who i am?

i'll post more later. just my thoughts as of now.