hello whomever.
today was..wierd.
i stayed up to about 3 last night. and woke up around 1 in the afternoon.
as soon as i woke up everyone said they had to leave. so they did. and i took my computer into the dining room for some tv and internet. then my parents came home. we ended up watching a few scary movies and just hanging out. and everything was good. later on i got dressed and we drove to antonellas for dinner with guy(my brother), his girlfriend sam, and my other brother ralph. on the way there i mentioned that my dad said he was giving me $100 for babysitting yesterday. and basically the entire car freaked out on me. telling me that he never said that blah blah blah when i swear he did. that basically set the mood for the night because i got pretty upset. i hate when people yell. it really upsets me. every single time. i was quiet at dinner. it was really delicious though. then college was brought up and my mom started crying. i really wanted to cry too. but i knew it would be dumb if i did. then the $100 thing got brought up again. and i was yelled at AGAIN. then my mom could see that i was really upset. so then we left and when i got into the car i got extremely emotional and started crying. no one could hear or see me because it was dark. but it was just upsetting. we went to barnes and nobles. i got 2 magazines that i thought my mom was gunna buy for me..then she said no. and it just made me that much more pissed off about everything. we left and came home and here i am.
altogether it just was poopy night. other than talking to him. he has a power to make me happy even if we dont have an actual conversation.
"<3(;loveyouletsmakeplansbyebye"
when he says things like that. it makes me excited.
but im still not sure. im such an odd one.
i guess ill go now.
thanks for reading. whoever you are.
i wish you well.
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