Wednesday, March 31, 2010

why do i constantly feel the need to fill that empty gaping hole inside my chest with someone of the opposite sex. i can't keep my mind in a straight line with all these beautiful boys running around giving me just a taste of what things could be like. i need to be one within myself. i don't write enough and i don't take care of myself enough. lately it's only been about the outside and quite frankly it's disgusting.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

24 March 2010

darling baby squirrels struggled for their life.
i watched and i cried and cried and cried.

change is coming.

23 March 2010

teateateatea

Monday, March 22, 2010

i suppose none of it matters, but at the same time, it matters so much. to know who one is. to know their morals, beliefs, personality. i was my own person for the longest time, until i wasn't. i discovered others and i wanted to be just like them. i admired it all. so i changed. i ripped myself apart and i changed. now left with nothing of myself, i sit here. alone, cold and scared. where do i go from here? how do i find myself? someone once told me that if i stop trying, i will just shine through everything. maybe i am myself and it's just the mind of society who throws these irrational ideas into my gullible brain. either way..where do i go from here?

22 March 2010

a cat that looked like a tiny cow watched me as i passed by.

21 March 2010

spring has sprung.
new york city.
photo exhibit.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Is it raining really hard where you are right now?
i almost wish it were.

What was the last unexpected hug you gave/received?
the other day, katie randomly hugged me.

Who was the last person you held hands with?
haha, kaitlin. we were scared when in the college.

Have you ever been in a parade before? If so, was it on TV?
no, no.

What was the last amusement park ride you went on?
superman at six flags.

Do you have a fear of rollercoasters? If so, were you ever forced to go on one? If you don't, what is your favorite rollercoaster?
nope, semi forced, semi willing. i quite enjoyed the superman at six flags.

Post a picture of you from a recent time.
Photobucket

Who was the last person to give you some of their food?
mackenzie.

Does anyone in your family work on the weekends?
ralph?

The last person you met, what was your first impression of them?
i don't remember who the last person i met was..

When was the last time you felt left out? When was the last time you felt like you left someone out?
i feel that way alot, friday.

Do you have to wash your hair everyday because it gets really oily?
hellno.
it's a miracle if it gets washed 3 times a week.

Who was the last person to give you a compliment?
i don't know.

If you have a crush, when was the last time you talked to them?
i don't.

Has a friend of yours recently gotten out of a relationship? If so, are they handling it well or are they being really depressive/annoying about it?
no one really has.

Who was the last person you told a secret to?
i don't have many secrets.

What is a song that can describe your life right now?
i don't know

Have you ever been on a Ferris wheel that had swinging cages/gondolas?
yeah!

Do you know anyone who has a birthday today?
no

What elementary school did you go to?
holy trinity.

Favorite holiday:
halloween

Do you need to do laundry right now?
momma does

Do you ever drink your cans of soda with a straw?
why not.

What was your last doctor’s visit for?
for my eye probably.

Celeb female crush? Even if you're a straight girl, just pick!
sierra kusterbeck, & lights.

What movie do you wish you starred in?
alice in wonderland.

What is the best class/subject you have ever taken?
art / glass.

Pick a number between one - ten?
10.

What is the wallpaper on your phone?
a wolf.

Favorite Power Ranger?
i don't know.

Do you still make forts?
yep.

Favorite Disney movie?
i don't know.

Nerf-guns: Yay or nay?
yay

Any weird phobias?
elevators.

One of your most embarrassing moments?
i feel silly about all sorts of things.

If you could be a dinosaur for a day, which one?
velociraptor.
mostly because my brother would pretend to be one and chase me around.

Tell me a secret.
no.

What did your mom name you?:
lauren elisabeth delia.

Which do you like better? Green tea or sweet tea?:
green

Do you think that it's annoying when people keep calling you over and over again when you purposely didn't answer the phone the first time they called?:
yes. and this happened today.
the child called 9 times. 9 damn times.

From where do you hail?:
tiny galaxies.

If you were going to be eaten by a baleen whale tomorrow and you knew about it what would you bring?:
my camera and some cheez its.

What would you do if you met your favorite celebrity?:
shia labeouf? i would die.

When annoying people on AIM IM do you tell them that you will be right back and never come back?:
no, i just do not answer.

Don't you think the opening ceremonies for the Olympics are the most boring thing in the world?:
i have never watched the olympics.

Do you ever think about the possibility of your school having a shooting, like The Columbine High School Massacre:
ofcourse.

In your head do you ever say "If you can read my mind clap twice" to see if anyone is reading your mind?:
no! but i really want to do that now!

How many bedrooms are in your house?
4 bedrooms.

Do you chew your nails?
i can't anymore.

When you yawn does your throat make a sound at the end?
sometimes, and it sounds so weird and i get embaressed.

Do you have wood, carpet or tiling in your room?
carpet. GAG ME.

What's a word you say more than 20 times a day?
poop.

Have you ever shaved your arms?
no.

Is your second toe longer than your big toe?
no, thank god.

What religion are you?
currently, i don't know.

Do you like banana peppers?
uhh i don't remember ever trying one?

Have you ever been on a cruise?
yes.

What is your favorite dessert?
every dessert that doesnt have fruit in it (besides some strawberry things)

What style are you (country, scene, prep, skater, black)?
i honestly don't fit in any i don't think..

Is there food over 3 years old in your freezer?
lord, no.

On a laptop, do you use the keypad or a regular mouse?
mouse.

Can you drive?
no

Have you ever broken the law?
today. like a boss.

When was the last time you said no?
up there ^^^^

Who is the last person you smiled at?
my mom.

Do you ever forget to wash your feet in the shower?
no? haha

What is the most played song on your iPod?
i don't even knkow

What's your favorite board game?
scattegories!

Do you have long or short fingers?
normal length. fat though.

Can you type fast?
i guess.

Do you like Hawaiian Punch?
yep

Would you consider yourself funny?
no. i'm only funny when i say gross things.
i am ashamed. hah.

Who is the prettiest person you know personally?
kaitlin.
she's so natural and unique.

The funniest?
julie

Best dressed?
all my friends.

Ugliest?
none.

When is the last time you cried?
recently. over nothing. literally. i hate being a woman sometimes.

Do you have any freckles?
3 on each cheek.

What makes you mad?
girls.

Did you like this survey?
i suppose.
Describe how you feel right now in one word:
strange.

Do you still have your Christmas lights up?
in my room, yes.

Where did you get your last bruise from?
i don't really know.
probably from running into something.

Who last called you?
charlie.

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
i hope not.

If you were in the hospital who would be the first to come see you?
nadia, probably.

Has anyone ever said anything that brought tears to your eyes?
yeah

Is there someone who you instantly smile when you receive a message?
a few people :]

What song could you listen to on repeat?
re:stacks by bon iver.

What's the last thing you drank?
cranapple juice.

Has anyone gotten on your nerves lately?
oh yes.

Where is the furthest place you've traveled?
florida.

Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
yeah

Ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
yeah

What do you order from McDonalds?
chicken nuggets, fries, water

Last compliment you received?
something on flickr, i suppose.

Why are you confused right now?
i aiin't.

Favorite food to snack on?
whatev

What's the best concert you've ever gone to?
probably the maine last year.

Was your New Years enjoyable?
pretty solid.

What was the reason you got grounded for last?
when i was about 5, for staying up too late with the babysitter.

When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go?
depends.

What's the reason behind your default?
it looked cool, but now i dislike it.

What woke you up this morning?
mackenzie.

Has a boy ever asked you for advice regarding a friend of yours?
yeah

Do you wear the hood on your hoodies?
sometimes.

Do long distance relationships really work out?
for myself, probably not.

Do you have something that belongs to someone from your past?
yeah

What was the last song you downloaded?
admit it! by say anything

What's your television must see?
my life as liz / the buried life.

Who do you mostly tell everything to?
nadia, julie, mackenzie.

Do you believe in luck?
sure.

Relationship between you and the last person you texted?
great friend.

What should you really be doing right now?
this.

Nervous for anything?
everything.

What is something you really miss?
beingskinny.

How many people got your back?
i'd say roughly 5.

If someone were to tell you how they felt about you, would you listen?
sure.

What are you looking forward to this summer?
driving around with friends, picture taking, summer sun, concerts, aruba.

Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
i don't have a best friend of the opposite sex. ok.

Have you ever cried over a text?
yeah. NYEH!

Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
not really.

Last guy to call you beautiful?
my dad? cool.

What was the last thing that impressed you?
how fast i can run when i run for my life.

Do you always answer your texts?
most of the time.

What does your favorite hat look like?
it's black and droopy.

Would you ever camp out on a beach, under the stars?
yep.

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
in my stomach? yes. literally? no. but that would nice.

What's your favorite band at the moment?
third eye blind, bon iver. yeah yeah

Is it awkward when you run into your ex?
GFKJHADFGKDSFK you have no idea.

Give me a lyric from the song you're listening to:
......

What's at the top of your wish list?
new lens.

Are you usually the comforter or the one being comforted?
comforter. i don't like to be comforted.

Have you changed in the past 6 months?
i suppose.

Ever feel alone when you're surrounded by people?
yeah

Craziest thing you've ever done on a dare?
eh i dunno.

What are you looking forward to?
summer summer.

Who have you kissed in the past month?
him. -_-

Have you ever fallen asleep on someone's shoulder?
i don't think so.

Are you currently logged into Facebook?
i think..but it's not open in my tabs.

Do you read PostSecret every Sunday?
usually on wednesdays.

Have you stayed up past 3 AM in the past week?
no

How many blankets are currently in your bedroom?
4. [heh! my dog just twitched]

Do you make your smiley faces backwards? [like this: (: ]
no. never.

Would you rather get rid of autumn or spring?
NEITHER!

Do you know what you're going to do with the rest of your life?
no!

Do you hang out with people who are younger than you?
no. i am always the baby of the groups im in.

Have you ever spilled nail polish everywhere?
it's possible

Are you more of a Hot Topic person or an Abercrombie person?
i'm more of a thrift store person.

Are you in your pajamas at the moment?
yeah

Is your birth year an odd number?
no

On Facebook, do you have people listed as your siblings who aren't really your siblings?
indeed. because i'm just that damn cliche.

Doesn't it annoy you when couples post things to each other's wall on Facebook that are all mushy and gross and NO ONE CARES?
sometimes. it really depends a.) the people and b.) my mood when i see it.

Do you ever say "FAIL" when people mess up?
i did. until everyone in the whole world did.

So what do you think about Chris Brown now?
uh.. okay.

What was the last song you had on repeat?
probably something along the lines of lil wayne.

Who is your favorite person to watch on Youtube?
versaemerge updates.

Ever kissed someone your parents hate?
nope.

What do you think about your cousins?
they're great.

What's the most you've ever read in a day?
alot.

Do you think the name Sage is for boys or girls?
i associate it with girls.
so ok.

Do you have a favorite radio station?
i despise the radio.

Do you use Sharpies often?
sure.

Did 2009 go by too fast or too slow for you?
too slow.

What's better: Capri Sun or Kool-Aid Jammers?
i don't even think i've had kool-aid jammers.
so capri sun.

What didn't you get for Christmas that you asked for?
a flip video camera.

Would you say that you've become more of a slut or less of a slut since a year ago?
less..?
hahah.

Any important firsts that happened during 2009?
probably but i don't remember.

Are you older or younger than most of your friends?
younger.

Pokemon or Yu-Gi-Oh?
pokemon duh

How often would you say you take naps?
often, recently!

Have you ever played "the game"?
sure.

What are your opinions on Kanye West?
i really do not care at all.

Does anyone you know exaggerate a lot?
sure do.

If you were to die, what song(s) would you want played at your funeral?
hmmmmm just bon iver on repeat the whole time.

Do you know what song you’d like to dance to at your wedding?
there's a lot of songs i'd like to dance to at my wedding.

Have you seen the wedding video where the people in the wedding entered the chapel dancing to Chris Brown’s “Forever”?
haha, yes

Do you have a good relationship with your mom/dad?
yep

Do you hate it when a song gets instant popularity from an iPod commercial or do you join the bandwagon and buy the song yourself?
yeah.

Are you one of those people that get nervous around babies and small children?
not nervous, but awkward. i don't like talking to them in baby voices..

Have you read The Lovely Bones? Are you excited for the movie?
i have not, but i do want to see it.

Is there a book you love so much that you’ve read it over and over again?
yeah

Do you use text lingo like ‘ur’ and ‘2’ whenever you text or instant message?
never. never ever.

Do you update your Facebook status often? When’s the last time you updated it and what did it say?
unfortunately yes. today. it said something regarding kaitlin, sam and mackenzie.

Do you try to eat healthy or do you just eat whatever you like whenever you like?
i should eat healthy..but i dont.

Do your dreams disturb you? What’s the most disturbing dream you’ve had?
they're weird. nothing really too disturbing.

What memory are you most afraid of losing?
i'm afraid that when i have kids, i'll only remember the shitty times i had, instead of the really amazing ones, and they'll think i was boring and never really lived.

20 March 2010

Kaitlin, Sam, Mackenzie.
abandoned college.

19 March 2010

reason to live today: icees from mobile.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

18 March 2010

looking at the sky, and watching the sunset made me realize that all my problems are incredibly small and silly.
there's bigger things to be focusing on.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

17 March 2010.

today.
good hair, sunlight, and warmth.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

16 March 2010

today.
Rachel's Challenge is very inspiring and sad.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

i took photos today.
i slopped my high tops through mud and water and snow.
i made it to the top and realized it probably was not the best idea.
but i stayed out and took pictures anyway.
the golden hour was perfect.
it was so warm.


i'll update more on here.